Songs that damn you

I say it time and again: I really should've learned my lesson by now.

A song I once heard, and that I once loved goes:

"Lahat ng may simula
Mayroong katapusan.
Lahat ng pagtatagpo
Mayroon paalaman

Ngunit kaibigan
ika'y bahagi na ng aking katauhan
Paano kita pagpapaalamanan?"

(every beginning has its end
every hello has its goodbye
but my friend,
you're a part of who I am
how can i tell you goodbye?)


I was so consumed with the idea of making things right, and healing wounds, and saying goodbye, that the simplest, and most obvious notion didn't even cross my mind. I tried to say so much, and I ended up telling you nothing at all. The words may have come easy, but it was the silence that I was looking for. And now, when I think about it, it really does suck, because now, I don't think I may have the chance to say the words I actually need to.

Or, more than that, how to be quiet around you again- it just doesn't work on the phone.


How ironic that these last two posts should be about the last two people to know.